So there was this girl, and we just were best friends, all through jr high. We seriously were so close it was crazy. Then this one time, she showed her affection towards me, and something sparked. Suddenly, the tables flopped and we were something a lot more. It wasn't healthy, it wasn't good. We depended way too much on each other, me especially. Then one day, she decides to call it quits. I felt pain I've never felt before. I never thought it would happen. My whole world just crashed and it was not the place anyone should be.
I decided then and there that I would never let that happen again. No one should get that close to me, especially a girl and I wouldn't let myself be hurt again
But I was wrong
This time it was different. We had, what I thought, was something special. It was fun. Everything seemed more enjoyable when she was around. We had awesome memories. It just felt.. Right.
But I was wrong. She wasn't totally invested in it, didn't want to ruin our friendship, and felt more like living in the moment and wanted to have more fun. Now anything is ruined from both sides. The way both of us has handled it is terrible and she seems to be even better off now without me.
I care too much about people, I have high expectations, and I am a believer in love. So that's what got me to here: in a similar position as my soph year, but now... I have to learn from the past. I just wish it didn't have to be this way. I gave too much for this happen. The only thing I can say is now I have to move on
I always have to give advice, so here is mine: whenever someone hurts you so bad that the emotional pain is physical, just remember that no matter how alone you feel, there will always be people you can count on. That person will never understand how bad they hurt you, no matter how much you try to tell them or what you say to them. And they'll forget about you and move on just like that. Your job is to just keep your head high, and show them that they don't own you, and that just like what they're doing, you can move on too. It'll take time, but it's for the better.
